I am blown away by the love and encouragement I have received here. You guys are amazing! I was so afraid to put my thoughts and feelings on this blank canvas and share them with strangers. I fought with myself, feeling no one would care about what I had to say. This internal struggle has gone on for two years.
My husband is a truck driver. He isn’t home very much. When he got home yesterday he made it very clear that I was to spend time with him, watching TV of all things! That is all he ever wants to do. I hate TV. How is that spending time together? I am able to post this because he has run down to the corner store. There is a desperation inside of me to write and to read all of your posts. I have been locked away in this situation for ten years. The noose is getting tighter by the day. I can’t breathe anymore. I have to find a way out. The support I have found here over the last two weeks has breathed new life and fire into me.
I am so sorry I have not been able to respond to all of you amazing people. He will leave out again tomorrow night. I will be back the minute he leaves. I long to be a part of a world outside of this prison. I can not thank you all enough for the love I have received here. Mere words are not enough. Please know that my gratitude runs deep. My soul is on fire, in a good way! I hear the truck. I will be back tomorrow night.
Thank you from the depths of my soul!
Crying can feel like dying – one drop at a time.